I. WAS. NOT. PREPARED.
-For how amazing this was. For the first time, I feel like I might fit in, just a little bit, here. Like I’ve stopped being a guest. It felt almost like a rite of passage. I can carry a Saree!
I do still need to learn to dance
like an Indian. At all.
Today, my motto was “Firangi Nahi!” (read: Not a foreigner). I so do not want this day to end. I feel like I belong here, even though I never will, fully.
I am like a child, trying to learn the intricate do’s and don’ts of a culture, language and tradition, all in an estuary of globalization and history.
I LOVE IT.
I’m basically on my way to being pseudo-adopted by my best friend’s family, The Sridharan’s are such an amazing group of people. I already feel a sense of… duty to them all. If luck or circumstance would have my life to be full of bounty, I would instantly make sure to share it with them.
I am here to learn what it means to be Indian, right here, right now. So far, it’s … fascinating and so rewarding. I don’t want this to end.
This experience has already been so rewarding. I know I have made life-long friends here. Even if everything else were terrible, they would have made it all worth it.
I’m trying to work on making certain that people in my life are ends unto themselves. Not a means to any end (shout out to Dr. Story and Camus). Including myself. This has really changed the way I view my relationships with others.
I am to your friend because of what you can do for me, or what I can do for you. I am beside you for this stretch of Life’s journey because simply your company is pleasing to my very spirit. There is no duty, no prerequisite, no obligation. We are here because we want to be, and it gives me insurmountable joy to see you happy. Nothing more is required.
I accept you, I love you, I challenge you. I accept myself, love myself, challenge myself.